It felt as though I had spent my lifetime straightening out constant mess, misunderstandings, hurt feelings, damaged egos, and when I was not being treated fairly I was afraid too, afraid to speak up. My lust for recognition and approval brought destruction upon myself. I didn’t understand that I had options at my disposal but I couldn’t pick anything up with my hands so filled with unnecessary baggage….I had I lost myself somewhere which I can’t remember.
I cry my eyes out whenever I’m mad or pissed about something that is beyond my control. I was emotionally, physically and spiritually drained, dealing with too needy people who were always holding out for more, making me feel obligated and guilty, and never feeling able to put myself first.